quiet

So quiet in the house. M at work. Em at a sleepover.. Just me and the dog. First time in awhile especially in the evening.

I'll finish up some work, start the washing machine, throw salt on the ice skating rink..(um..driveway), tidy up Em's room (you know..get rid of the papers and stuff that is really trash..would be nice to see the top of her dresser..), and maybe watch a girly movie.

I'm getting old..used to be I would be getting ready to hit the bars around this time...oh..about 15-20 years ago...wow..it has been that long..damn..

Well there is something about being older... comfy sweats, John Denver on the CD player, and just the quiet solitude.

dreams in song

Did you ever go to sleep and have your dreams filled with songs?

That is what happened to me last night. It was sort of like my own personal music video. I dreamt of loved ones who have passed and it was amazing.

Brad and Dolly singing "When I Get Where I am going". It was so comforting to see those that I love in peace, feeling healthy, and happy.

Makes me cry missing them but I was comforted with seeing them in my dreams and I got their
loving messages last night

thinking

What are certain Mothers teaching their children? If there is a group around and you hear them talking down about someone else or someone else's child it makes you wonder. Especially if they are "friends" with the person they are gossiping about....What do they say about me and my child when I am not around? What do they teach their daughters and sons at home, during family time? Why is it that under the "cover" of religion people can be rude, hurtful, gossip, laugh? Do I want my child to be in contact with these individuals? Many times I feel like an outsider as I stand there..almost unseen..quietly listening. I am trying to raise my child to be a gentle soul, a caring individual, willing to help others no matter what class, gender, religion, race they are.

Granted I am not perfect and my child is not perfect but I refuse to talk nasty about others. My philosophy: Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if he or she were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness, and understanding you can muster, and do so with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again.

My heart was lifted when we got home. My baby told me how she helped two different children who had bloody noses today (one a boy and one a girl). During recess...one hit with a ball. Accidents happen. Children are children especially when finally able to go outside and play in the sun. She was not involved but she was being the caring soul I am trying to raise and was willing to walk with the injured child into school to get help. Being a friend.

If only all children were willing to help others in need. Those gentle souls grow to be gentle adults and just imagine what this world would be like in the future.

snow days

Is it bad to wish for a snow day harder that your own child?

The Chicken Little weather people were at it last night..."oh...the big snow is comin, the big snow is coming"...all we needed to hear were the words "hunker down" and I would have lost it.

Anyway...supposed to get 4-6 inches...HAHAHAHA..maybe got 1 if we were lucky. The sleet has
started now and I am more worried about that.

Thankfully the schools were smart and closed. YIPPEE! Got to sleep in until 7:45 today..woohoo! Granted I was up at 5:30 cause honey had to go out into it. I worry when he travels farther from home.

Sometimes loving someone so much can be scary when you worry so. M&Em...they are my love and my life.

voting

Okay. I am so over this a$$hole of a president that this country has. It is to the point where I hear his voice/name/see his face and I just scream and turn the channel. I am ready for someone new. Why is it that the current batch of contenders leaves a bit to be desired? Interesting web site I found.

Who should I vote for?

Hopefully the link will work. Was not real happy with the answer it gave me but then again I dislike them all. I think it might come down to McCain and Oprah..I mean O'bama. If we could squish them together like clay and get just one person with all the good points of both, I think this country might have a chance.

So tired of being broke..working 12-14 hours a day and making less than I made in 2003. Isn't ones income supposed to go up over the years. Instead mine has been in freefall mode. Don't know what else I can do. Had to cut important things...like Em's school. A whole nother story I won't get started on. Let's just say it breaks my heart when my baby has a constant "stomach ache" when ever you mention school. What am I supposed to do now? We are just trying to hold on until summer and hopefully it will get better. I mean we eventually have to stop falling right? I am just worried the impact when we do stop will bring a whole new case of problems.

Think I'm getting an ulcer......

Time to get to work....everyone breath and pray..

Bring back the stone tablet and horse.

Day from hell yesterday..computers crashing, luckily had back up laptop that would do for a few days. Had to copy important info to save. Forgot about important internet info like address book and bookmarks. Ugh...to remember passwords again. Nightmare. What good are computers again??? Not even my computer. Instead helping and cause lost work hours for me. Digital cable out...hours on the phone with clueless people..finally someone with a brain last night after 45 minutes on hold...yes..I actually stayed on hold that long. Tech can’t come out til next week..ugh..well don’t have time to watch TV anyway.Work until midnight..new meaning to burning the midnight oil. Up from 6 am to midnight and back up at 6 am.

Work website down this morning...is that a sign from above for me to go back to bed and get a few more hours? If so...I’m gonna take it.

Not even going to deal with the truck story.

crazy world

Crazy world

Full of crazy contradictions

Like a child.

First you drive me wild,

And then you win my heart

With your wicked art.

One minute tender, gentle,

Then temp'ramental as a summer storm.

Just when I believe your heart's getting warmer,

You're cold and you're cruel,

And I, like a fool, trying to cope,

Trying to hang on to hope.

Crazy world,

Ev'ryday the same old roller coaster ride.

But I've got my pride,

I won't give in,

Eventhough I know I'll never win.

Oh, how I love this

Crazy world.