The pit is back in my stomach.. thinking about finances again. Taxes, school tuition, plane tickets, monthly bills. Why did the DVD player break? Could we have waited for a new one? Why can I not stop stressing over it all? Going on less than 4 hours of sleep per night. Working frantically like a squirrel gathering for the tough times. Still this feeling of uncertainty. Hate it. What is happening in 2008. Am I losing it. Medicine change again..cause or effect.
Finding that the rain adds to the process. Raining..thinking..stressing. Garage flooded again. Shoes wet..yelled this morning..sad drop off...guilt sets in and will last until pick up...tears now flow...yet more water. So need some sun. Is this the symptom of SAD..do I need a "grow lamp" or just to hit the lottery..LOL.
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